Wednesday, November 11, 2015

11.11.2015 / Wed - pm / 194 lbs
Bench press, touch and go
45 x 12
135 x 6
185 x 4
225 x 2
235 x 1
245 x 6 x 6

Felt shaky and weak till fourth set at which point the 245 became easy. I was able to get really tight and the weight exploded upward each rep with no wavering. I felt like I had another rep or two in me on that set...but that would have meant no more volume tonight with that much weight.



"Hey, Conservatarians, Your Fascism Is Showing": Prominent Libertarians Cashing In Their Libertarian Cards


"Don't compromise yourself. 
You are all you've got."
 - Betty Ford


Remember when libertarian leading lights like Lew Rockwell and Stefan Molyneux used to make nuanced arguments for liberty? If so, then maybe you've been watching them as they sound more and more like apoligists for Donald Trump or David Duke lately and you're wondering what the hell happened.

Both men have always had a strong whiff of nativist white supremacist about them. This isn't a slight. It's an observation. Hey, we're all xenophobic and racist to some degree. The thing about liberty is that no matter how you think others ought to behave or how the world should look, you have to fight every unprincipled urge to resort to the state solution of forcing people to do your will through the threat of violence.

Maybe fumes from the zeitgeist that fuels Trump's popularity among the conservative, nativist, xenophobic right have saturated the brains of those libertarians who started out as right wingers in the first place. These days those who came in from the right are like vampires trying to be good...but with Trump channeling the roiling frustrations of rednecks and police statists, blood is in the air and the reformed quasi-libertarian vampires can't resist. They're giving in to their base instincts.

And by base instincts I do not mean their "race realism" or xenophobia. As unpalatable as I find their pseudo-scientific opinions on darkies like me, I respect their right to hold these opinions...and in truth I have more than a little sympathy for them  the same way I do for ghetto snipes, the religious, drug addicts, and petty criminals, because they are merely the product of forces that shaped their opinions and behavior.

No, by base instincts I mean their desire to initiate violence to have their way. I mean their rationalizing the use of the state.

I'll be the very first to admit it: liberty gets hard. At least until you grow up enough to accept deep down in your boots that you really can't force peaceful people to behave the way you want. It takes a rare kind of grown up to live and let live even when other people's peaceful, i.e. consensual, activities annoy or disgust him. That's what's supposed to make libertarians different. They are the ones who see the state for the grand immorality that it is, like some sadistic pedophile who raises his children to believe that their routine rape at his hands is natural.

This is what it always comes to for the conservative sort: the hidebound, slightly incestuous desire to protect the tribe from change...which is kind of what happens to ALL cultures eventually. One hundred years or a thousand, each culture only has so long before it breaks apart entirely on its way to reforming into new cultures by melding with other cultures. Kind of like human beings themselves who are here for a while and then gone, their genetic codes and beliefs living on in others, but slightly transformed.

The desire to freeze cultures and societies forever as you as an individual have known them, however...that is irrational at best and delusionally, criminally psychotic at worst. Turning to the initiation of force to keep your culture "pure" forever...It doesn't work and it turns you into a violent, authoritarian monster.

I'm not saying not to discriminate and to accept all peaceful behavior. But it's up to the individual to disengage on an individual level with people with whom he doesn't agree. No libertarian would turn to the initiation of force (and the state is nothing but the distilled essence of the initiation of force) to get his way. No libertarian would turn to the state as a solution. If he does, he's not a libertarian. He's a paleoconservative maybe...or a neoconservative...or a nanny state liberal...or communist...or socialist...or fascist...or whatever label applies to the ends that his violent means justify in his mind. But he is no libertarian.

And that's ultimately my point. When a man starts arguing for state solutions to build the world he wants, he's forfeited whatever libertarian principles he'd been claiming. A libertarian may in his heart worry about there being too many non-whites within a 1500-mile radius for his liking. But he would never, ever support the state using its stolen funds to build walls, hire uniformed overseers to patrol it, and more agents to check peoples for papers of state permission to be on private property.

Maybe it would be a little clearer to him if I started arguing for the state to guarantee just a tiny bit of a minimum wage...or a tiny bit of protectionism for minorities in the work place...you know, just a tiny bit of Affirmative Action. Then maybe he would see that we're all just back to lining up our armies at Mordor to seize the Ring of Power.

Once he starts arguing for solutions from the centralized monopoly on violence, he has to turn in his libertarian card. I'm not even saying he's not being practical in turning to the state. I am saying he is unprincipled and immoral and back on the side of the devils. No matter how nicely he frames his arguments -- no matter if it is for borders, policing, military, welfare, minimum wage, guns, or butter -- he is back to being just another thug for whom rape, murder, and theft justify the greater good as he sees it.



Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Olympic Squat 325 x 6 x 6, Off The SARM

11.10.2015 / Tues - am / ~196 lbs
Olympic Squat, no belt
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 4
275 x 2
315 x 1 x 2
325 x 6 x 6

Whew doggie. I made it. Six sets. It actually got easier till set five. Reps were continuous, rhythmic till the sixth set in which I had to rest-pause the last couple reps. Trained (mostly) fasted at 5 am (though I had a tiny bit of cheese with my coffee at 3).

I'm guessing 325 is probably an 8RM at this point. I'm very pleased that 315 felt like nothing even with slight pauses. And then I was able to get sets of six with 325 when half the sets with only five felt like my limit just a couple weeks ago.

I stopped dosing the rat four days ago. I had since been feeling a bit slughish and down since my test is undoubtedly low and there is no longer a test mimic to pick up the slack. But I think I'm bouncing back already.

Friday, November 6, 2015

11.06.2015
Bench Press, touch and go 
45 x 12
135 x 6
185 x 4
225 x 2
245 x 1
265 x 1
275 x 3, 1, 2, 2, 2

That was mildly disappointing. Died on fourth rep. I wasn't nearly tight enough on that first set. I decided to get some volume and managed a few doubles.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Dumbbell Rows with 135-lb Dumbbells...Taking a Break in November?

11.04.2015 / Wed - am 
One-Arm Supported DB Row 100 x 5, 135 x 5 x 2

I had to be out by the Lake Mary LAF very early this morning and I wouldn't have time again for at least a couple days to be there. So I went in to avail myself of those sweet, sweet heavy dumbbells. I sense that I will soon be good for 150 for a set of five. I suppose I'll just work on volume after that. I really want to get up to bodyweight for reps and eventually very high reps. Not sure where I'll find dumbbells that heavy.


I'm thinking of stopping both this RAD and training cycle this week...

It just kind of hit me this morning. Maybe I should give my rat a break from dosing now for the last three weeks of the month. This would give me a great chance to document how it affects my strength as the bench press is very clearly benefiting the most and will act as a reliable gauge.

On the other hand, I 'm considering running with only very short breaks (one week) between another two cycles after another two weeks of this cycle.

Or maybe I should switch to LGD at the end of this week...keep the cycles down to four weeks...?

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

11.03.2015 / Wed- pm / 194 lbs
Olympic Squat, no belt
45 x 15 
135 x 6
225 x 4
275 x 2
315 x 1
325 x 1
335 x 5 x 2

This is actually an improvement over last week's struggle with 335 for six reps with increasingly long pauses. But no way I could get three sets.


Last week was harder...



I think I should start taking five-lb jumps from here and shooting for at least five reps for a couple sets of continuous reps.

Very busy morning and a good time to stop eating again for a while. My weight is hovering just above 194 this afternoon. This is actually a good thing...

I have a bit of flab around my middle that I could stand to lose so that I have more room to get more muscular as a 198-lb class lifter. I'd been ballooning up so quickly that I thought I would be bidding adieu to the 198 very soon. 

But if I can be weighing 195 with such a (relatively) high bodyfat percentage and still be planning a 275 x 5 bench, then maybe I can squeeze in another 10 lbs of muscle in this weight class and still get my bench marching toward 400.

(It's never enough. I am just barely getting to 315 now and I'm only thinking of 405.)

I really should pick up another couple bottles of RAD-140 while supplies last and the clearance sale is still going on, I am thinking that maybe another couple bottles of GW-501516 may be in order, too. The anecdotal reports for GW aren't good, but I think it had a positive effect on calorie partitioning

I have noticed that my nipples are tight upon my waking up, but they start getting bloated and puffy looking as soon as I start taking in food. So I bloat very easily. Maybe it's the MK 677. I don't know if this happened so quickly in the past. But I definitely notice it now.

Here is a GAF pic of my nipples while I'm still fasted (you're welcome!) followed by a pic of me a few minutes after my first meal:



Notice the puffier nipple in the bottom.







Monday, November 2, 2015

Bench PR 255 x 5 Four Sets

11.02.2015 / Mon-pm / 196 lbs
Bench Press, touch and go
45 x 12 x 2
135 x 6
185 x 4
225 x 2
245 x 1
255 x 5 x 4 PR

Last week this was a five-rep max. I was afraid it was too soon since Saturday's 265 x 5. But it went fine. RAD seems to like my rat a lot.

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